The Sky Isn't Falling.

by Amy

Hi. I'm a 16 year old music enthusiast, and I really love writing songs. But I'm having a little trouble writing about the biggest thing that's going on in my life right now for some reason. It's easier, to me, to write songs about my friends and family. But when it comes down to writing about me and this guy I like, Skyler, my mind just blacks out.

Anyway, I really need to tell someone about me and this guy Skyler. . . Okay, so me and Skyler both attend the same summer camp every year to work at. It's a high adventure camp with Rock climbing, rafting, and kayaking. I met him at this camp 3 years ago, and have liked him ever since. To make things better, I found out he lived in my same town. Which was odd, cuz the camp was in a different state. I fell for him the first time I saw him. But I was too afraid to tell him how I felt, scared of rejection and regret. Finally, since he played guitar, I asked him if he could teach me some chords. But when our far from average guitar lesson started, I learned exactly zero chords and we ended up talking about birth marks. And ended our "Guitar lesson" with us both saying we needed to get ready for bed. Sooo I guess you might could say awkward... I really liked him, and he knew it. But he never made a move. So I figured he didn't want to be any more than just friends. But the weird thing is, we were never even that.
He never talks to me. Then he moved away to a different state. I write him, and text him, but he never responds. So I assumed he just wanted to end all forms of communication, and I gave him his space. But THEN he came back to my town. He wrote me before he came, the first time in a year. He said "Hey, I just wanted to tell you I'm going to be in town next week. We should hang out some." I was obviously stunned. I didn't know what to think. But I said "Yeah, we should." Then when he got to town, he went with my class on a field trip to a college campus for seminars we had to go to. . . It was so good, but weird to see him again. We had all met at a parking lot early in the morning, when it was still a dark purple-y color. As I was driving up to the parking lot, I knew who he was just by his silhouette. I can't even tell you how fast my heart was pumping. I really was about to fly away from all the butterflies in my stomach. I got out of the car, and he gave me a hug. I didn't want to let go at all. When we got to the campus, while we were on break from the seminars... he and I were walking up a spiral staircase and were talking. I hadn't gotten any sleep the previous night and when he asked how I was I told him the truth. I hadn't slept last night and was about to fall over from exhaustion. Then he put his arm around me and told me he wouldn't let me fall. To cut this shorter, he's basically bipolar. I don't know what to do from here on out. Cuz I AM going to see him this summer, and I don't know if I should confront him or not. So, I guess you can see, it's hard to wrap all these feelings into one song. I titled this "The Sky Isn't Falling" because Skyler isn't falling for me.