writing song after your Love`s death

by mariam
(tbilis,Georgia)

writing song after your Love`s death

well,maybe it`s not so odd and interesting story about songwriting.i was one tupical girl like others and i loved one guy.it was about 5 years ago.i didn`t know how to make my feelings open,how to tell him i love you.everything was all right,as he was alive.i was just happy,when i was watching him walking playing football and even kissing other girls.of course,it was diffficult mentaly,but i was thinking that it is ok and i`m happy.
One day,he died.it`s a long story,so i won`t write now.first of all,it was a day when i grew up and turned 14 year old girl into the 30 year old woman!it was shock for me!i was crying and din`t want to see even my parents!then...time passed slowly.i started other life after his death,but problem was that i couldn`t tell others my feelings,my past wishes!and i knew,i would die if this energy fill in my soul and not out!
one night,i couldn`t sleep,thinking about him.i was writing something and i had some music note book there.(i go to musical college)and suddenly,i started writing some notes and then i wrote words.i don`t remember what i wrote exactly,but in the morning i felt ok and i wanted to write again.of course,then i wrote on my piano...it`s not for listening!but maybe it helped me against depression and even against the death
so i think music writing saved my life!